“L0ST G1RL”

I wrote this song as I was slowly healing from being r**** in the fall of 2018. I wasn’t really able to come up with more than a few lines until 2021. The first recordings are either somewhere on my hard drive, Google Drive, or lost forever. Those first recordings were very angry and very descriptive of what I would like to do with the person that harmed me, along with all of the people who knew what happened to me and made light of it because of my and my r****** respective identities. I am not saying those recordings were not valid, they definitely are. However, even if I do find them, they are for me. Alas, I cannot give all of me to my internet friends lol.

If you would like to support various organizations for all survivors and victims (victims as in people who unfortunately, did not survive the s*xual assault they endured), please feel free to donate to your local orgs or click here in order to support the collective efforts towards creating a safer and just society void of r*** culture.

If you’d like to support Buddy/Musiclandria, who was my collaborator for the most recent versions of these beats, you’re welcome to connect with them here. They have everything from events, studio rental spaces, and even a free instrument library program!

Slippin (Slippin)

To the bathroom floor

I am praying (hoping)

Hoping (Hoping) 

That it don’t hurt no more

Cuz I’m injured in the limbo

Wounded Wounded 

Can’t see a light 

I wonder where that is

Past Future but the Present 

Oh

My soul burning inside

I saw myself outside tonight

I saw myself

I saw myself in arms tonight

I saw myself

I lost my mind outside tonight 

I lost myself 

But my body is in inside tonight

Oh I

Lost myself 

Find

Me


Pushing (Rising)

Up from the floor 

I wonder what’s above

Grasping (Grabbing)

Ebony Drawers

I long for what’s inside 

Stories (for me)

That push the line

I cry for a girl that needed love

Rebuilding the body

That got me here

My soul is the light in the dark